Will wrote: ↑Tue Apr 12, 2022 10:34:22 pm
Welcome to the jury Lindsey 
Could you please when you feel upto it update the jury on how the game has gone from your point of view? I'm curious about Any insight on relationships and where the game currently sits with the F6?
Anything that can help the jury piece together the game so far, from your point of view we'd love to hear
I wanted to move some of the conversations in my jury thread to something more positive, haha. So I had today to reflect and overall I feel really proud of the game I played and, I wouldn't regret any move I did that got me to this spot.
For everyone who hasn't read my confessionals, my story has been really up and down. The first vote of the entire game for me went fine, then Hali and I got blindsided on Day 2 on the Mike vote. From about Day 2 until about Day 14 (fake merge with the 2 games coming together), I had to play from the bottom. Hali and I were in trouble on OG Maus the second Mike got out, so we did everything to try to get in socially with everyone in OG; luckily our tribe won immunities until the swap so we didn't have to worry, but everyday was a struggle on that OG tribe for us. It was through that we bonded, and she was honestly the only person I could trust in this game. We knew we would always have a target on our back as long as us and OG were together, but we did everything to survive to get us to merge. I think it was Day 12 of this game, and I basically got voted out unanimously by Kam 4 after busting my ass all weekend; luckily, Nina was inactive and pulled from the game. Form that point forward those 2 days were hell. I knew if I could just survive the swap, #halsey could come back together and kick it to the end.
I can't remember what day it was by before the fake merge, I won prisoner's dilemma, I saved Will and we got 2 of the 4 Kams to flip and get out Tiffany. I would say that was my first big move of the game. From there, we all met up at the fake merge, OG Maus was reunited, and so was #halsey. Hali and I backseat drove the JD and Rodney votes but nobody realized it at the time. After that, we got separated a second time into another swap, but I also thought the same thing, if we could just survive these next couple rounds, we can meet up at merge again. So then I think our tribe won 3, Hali's lost 3. I noticed 2 women in a row leave. On Day 20 (Final 17) (the day I also found my idol), Hali left. My biggest, and probably only REAL regret in this game was not sending her my hidden immunity idol to play it for herself that night. I regret that move a lot, even now because had that happened, we would have met at merge again. Needless to say, I didn't do that and that was my mistake I carried with me everyday in the game.
When I got to merge (I think day 21?) I made it my mission to find out what happened at Final 17, who was responsible for what, and I crosschecked the story with multiple people involved and I got to it. Jessica and Taylor voted with her on the Stephanie vote, but flipped on the Carolyn and Hali votes to get her out. I know Erika also threw Hali under the bus, but things change in the game and I needed Erika to move ahead in the game. Anyway, I made it my mission to get out whoever was responsible for her leaving, even if that cost me my entire game, I didn't care. I made that clear in my confessionals. That is really what created the shift in my game from playing safe to playing hard and making big movezzz.
That vote at the merge, I came to Will and proposed we go in the split vote we all discussed and play into Crete's plan. I knew Jay didn't want to flip on Jessica or Taylor, so I needed to take things into my own hands (with the help of Will). I convinced everyone we were in on the split and I somehow was in control of all 14 votes at the merge, I knew where every single person was voting. We were able to take out Jessica. Then came Genie, then came Taylor. I was planning to do Taylor next, but I knew I had damage control to do with Jay, so I needed to work on that relationship with him. Again, we get to 12, it's the last day to use my idol. I was in such a good position in the game, I didn't even need it for myself, but I thought to help my case if I were to ever make it to the finals, I needed to play my idol correctly. I wanted to make sure that everyone knew I held on to my idol for exactly 5 moves (until the very last minute), and never needed it, but I didn't want to burn my idol. I knew, once again, where all the votes were going. I knew everyone wanted Rachel out, but that didn't bode well for my game.
I played the idol on Rachel, I idoled Taylor out, who was the second person to flip on Hali, and I got him out successfully. That move, unfortunately, sealed my fate in the game, and I was immediately shoved back on the bottom, but I fought hard for 5 votes after that. Thanks to Ricard, he played an idol on me at 11. At the time, we all thought it was the right move (and I am sorry, Ricard you got voted out so soon). But after he left, I paid for it, I fought like fuck and scraped by. I thought if I could just make it to 7 I'd be fine. But I wasn't.
I was closest to Jay at the end. We had a very up and down relationship. I saved his ass premerge because I knew he had ties with Taylor and Jessica that I needed to figure out what happened with Hali. Yes, it was most definitely a revenge tour and I regret nothing. It was loads of fun. Jay and I got along, then didn't get along, then kinda got along, and near the end we realized we needed each other and had no other choice. He was my only path to even consider making it to final 3. Unfortunately, I got out and now he is fighting for his life.
Wendell is in the perfect spot right now, he leads 3 of the goats. The goats all have a chance to the end with him. Erika is playing the most underrated game of the season. I had my eye on her since the first swap but she's made it. She just needs a big move to make her mark. Jay is just... Jay. If this kid can make it to the end, I'm giving him my vote.
I counted the night before I was on the bottom of the Ricard vote and I was in control of 10 votes in a row, I think 8 or 9 were blindsides. I played from the bottom, to the top, then back on the bottom again. It was the ride of my life tbh, I had a blast, I wouldn't change my game for anything. I wanted the chance to pitch my case to the jury but I didn't get that opportunity and it's fine. I learned a lot about myself anyway and I'm super proud of the player I am. I met some really great people, and I had the chance to play some version of the greatest game of all time, and I am forever grateful.
-Lindsey
#halsey
We all are in ponderosa be bitter bitches or move the fuck on yall sound soooo bitter 
We all are in ponderosa be bitter bitches or move the fuck on yall sound soooo bitter 
