- Thu Apr 14, 2022 8:20:29 am
#74331
I've taken some time today to reflect on this experience and the game that I've played and how its affected me personally.
All of the lurkers and hosts and whatnot know this about my life story, but only a scarce few players do, I think I only told a couple of people. I didn't want to use this to influence anything in the game and also I just wanted to be seen for who I am, not to be remembered by people for this, and I know I've done that justice. But I've been waiting for the right opportunity to tell you guys my full story, since it's in confessionals and it'd be kinda strange for you guys to suddenly stumble across it haha. But also because I'm proud of who I am. Period.
Since the age of 6, I've grown up with Aspergers Syndrome, which places me on the Autism Spectrum. It affects my ability to read social cues, body language, tone, it affects my organisation and attention span. But more than that, for a large part of my life its controlled my mindset. I've always been scared of what I might not be able to do, or what mistakes I might make in those settings. So much so, I was very isolated up until the age of about 15 or 16, because I didn't have the ability to say, this is who I am and I'm proud of it. But, I kept fighting, and really the last few years have been a blessing to me. Don't get me wrong they've been just as hard, but 2, 3 years ago I wouldn't have the confidence to stand here and tell my story so proudly. And then, leading to Stranded. In the back of my mind, coming into the season I was scared of being a little out of depth. Naturally, given my age, and just previous life experiences. But I think the struggles have made me strong, and they've made me a fighter and just a stubborn ass bitch. And that's what I did in this game, I fought, every step of the way. And even as I was fighting, the love and respect that I felt from each and every one of you, jurors, hosts, even just today my reception into the jury. Really, really did just make me feel fulfilled with my journey here. And that's all thanks to each and every one of you. Gameplay aside, you're all incredible, I want you all to know I appreciate you a lot, for not only being a part of my stranded story, but as a part of my life story as I continue to grow as a person, no matter how large or small. Because I'm still growing and there's plenty left in the story to write.
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